today was interesting, so naturally i decided i needed to blog about it.
well, this morning was a tough morning. probably i didn't eat breakfast, i was trying to finish an online midterm before work, and i was thinking about my life and all these big, hard questions that you think of when you start to grow up and they all just make you want to cry.
i didn't want to go to work. all i wanted to do was stay home and sleep or cry all the stress away.
but, lo i went to work and my day changed.
i work at an elementary school as the after-school coordinator. i monitor at recess for the first 45 minutes of work. for those of you who really know me, you know how passionate about teaching and kids i am. i just love them. kids are seriously the best. they say the funniest things and are so sweet. they are so carefree and precious.
well, at recess, a little boy fell down and he had some mud on his face and a couple scratches. i was asking him if he was ok and was about to send him to the office, but before i did he asked me a question... [remember that he was kind of whimpering/crying]
"am i almost dead?"
i had to laugh a little, because seriously, how cute was he.
sometimes i feel like asking the same question.
there are times i am filled with so many stresses and trials that i feel like maybe i am dying [mentally] and that i feel as though i cannot take it anymore. but then i remember that my heavenly father never forsakes me. there are many instances in the scriptures where his people cry unto him of their burdens and he hears their cries and softens their burdens. i am so grateful to know that my savior never leaves me alone, especially in my most troublesome times.
if it weren't for that little boy today at work, i never would have been reminded of this tender mercy in my life.
i think sometimes i get so flustered in what i need to do for school, or church, or with my relationships, that i forget to slow down and look at the small, tender mercies in my life that i have been blessed with.
so from now on, i think it'd be best for me to slow down and live life being thankful for the small things that i am blessed with.
here's to new beginnings, slowing down, and being happy with what i have.